Faith Pulse Check

Hello everyone, I hope that today finds you enjoying your 2014. I'm still shocked at how quickly last year went! So, happy Sunday to you. I pray that you find your heart at peace and your spirit soaring. Today was a pretty interesting day for more reasons then one. But the most important reason I want to discuss is essentially the main topic of this post. Today, I realized that I was allowing my faith in God to be based on my circumstances--my beautiful, God ordained circumstances. I really have nothing to to complain about. I have a wonderful job, live in a beautiful home and am able to care for another person who needs my care. But there is this one thing, this thing in my life that I have been persistent in praying for. I mean, everyday, I have sought God to change the heart of this person that I love deeply and with all that I am. Last night, I was made privy to a circumstance that absolutly broke my heart for many reasons. But most importantly, the reality of this circumstance showed me that my prayers I have been persistenly carrying to the Lord have clearly not been answered. "WHY GOD?!?! WHY DO YOU PERSIST IN NOT ANSWERING MY PLEADS FOR YOU CHANGE THIS?" My heart was so broken last night and I was so beside myself that truly, gah, I dont even know how to express them even now.... Today, after pondering last nights events and the reality before me, God revealed to me something much more important than Him not answering my prayers the way I want him to-he directed me to taking a pulse of my faith and to re-assess where my heart truly is with Him and how I view Him. He gentely reminded me, too, that when we fix our eyes on the circumstance before us, we are not able to fix our eyes on Him. Our focus has shifted and when our focus shifts off the Lord (who is the source of all peace, love, joy, contentment, life!) and shift it towards the things of this world (men, careers, money, etc), then our spirits will not find rest. So today, even though my heart is disappointed and sad, I will shift my gaze back towards Him and continue to pray that God make my faith bigger. That he will turn my gaze from the reality that be to all that is in HIM.